I’m always hesitant to show my doodles and artwork to people because a part of me is always thinking, Who am I to think I’m an artist? I never went to art school or learned any techniques for creating, and sometimes I would imagine a real artist looking at my work and thinking what an amateur I am. I have felt many times like an underdog, simply because I didn’t have fancy tools and developed skills to be in the artsy world (let alone build a business selling art). My voice in my head would scream those things at me, and I’ll take them in as truth.
The raw, imperfect parts of us--the parts that feel overwhelmingly not good enough, not refined enough--those are the parts that are scary to accept and share with others. In our eyes, they aren’t beautiful and they don’t have worth and value. But just like doodles, I’m learning to think of us as unrefined, beautiful pieces that can still serve a purpose. We’ll constantly be evolving, but that doesn’t mean that today we have nothing of value to bring forth. If we only strived for perfection in our creations, we would never want to show anything. If we only strived to be our perfect selves, we would never connect with others.
I think showing the raw, imperfect parts of us is a process, one that often involves daily doses of courage and learning to love and accept ourselves. I think we start by learning to stand face-to-face with what’s in front of us. We learn to embrace what we already are and can do, instead of what we aren’t yet and what we don’t have. We hold on to a hope for what we want to become, and accept that through the process we are still valuable and lovable enough to continue to be better.
So when I doodle and create lines and shapes and letters, I’m fully aware that in many ways my work is imperfect, incomplete, and lacking. I know there are many different creators out there and many who may be more well-trained and refined in their technique. I know there’s always room to develop my creations more and improve them. I can easily take those things and many parts of my story, and feel sorry for myself--or I can not let the circumstances define the rest of the road forward, or keep me from ever reaching my potential. I know that through the process of creating and showing my work, I will improve--and I’ll also improve in the process of loving and trusting in my abilities and worth.
Though I’m still scared every day, I think every morning I'll have to learn to choose to be brave again. I don’t think insecurities and fears just wash away with praises or an accomplishments. We have to learn to walk with the fears sometimes, and accomplish things even when the fears linger. We have to learn to focus more on what we could gift to others with what we create and who we are, instead of focusing on what we could lose and the embarrassment we could feel. There are days we’ll feel capable, and there are days we’ll feel incapable--but the question really is, are we willing? Are we willing to be brave again, to show the raw, imperfect parts of us and the process?
So I’m hoping to share more with you guys here, and I hope to create a space where we can encourage each other to start be more and strive less. Where we can rest and find joy about who we are today, and keep staying hopeful for what we are becoming tomorrow. So thanks for joining me here, through the raw, imperfect process. I hope it’ll encourage you to be braver to live out yours as well.
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Also, the print above can be found here in sizes 5x7 and 8x10!